What If?

At the present moment we are all freshman in college. Growing up this is where we dreamed of going to school, we cheered for the heels we worked hard in school to become a heel and now we are here. It seems that my entire life I've been working to get to this place and now that I'm here I wonder if I was rushing through the younger years of my life in heavy anticipation of the ultimate moment. I've been contemplating this thought for some time now and it bothers me to think that I went through life with one thing on my mind. Now that I'm in college life feels so much more real. I have to make new goals, I have to excel in school so that I can eventually get a job. It's kind of sad that my childhood days are gone, I wish that I could do it all over again. Now that I'm out of high school I will never play soccer again competitively. It's odd to think of the the fact that something that dominated every afternoon of my life has been completely removed. I always think back to the days when all you had to do was go to elementary school for six hours, go to practice, eat a nice meal, shower, and go to bed. If only it were that easy still. Now I never have time to sit down and do something that I would like to do. It's always constant movement and alternating states of stress with my mind constantly worrying about the future and how I'm going to accomplish certain task and goals. I always look at my younger siblings who are nine and twelve and get jealous of their lives. They always seem to be doing the opposite as they admire my life for how mature I'm and the supposed liberties that I have been granted. However, I would do almost anything to go back in time to when I had no real responsibilities. A life where I could create my own fun with all the time in the World to do it in. Only this time I'd completely disregard any pressures or worries about my future life. Not to say that I would quit school and lay around the house all day, but I would take full advantage of the freedom and simplicity of being a child. It may seem odd that I'm writing about this now given how exciting of a time my life is, but I can't help but wish it could somehow start all over again. Think about it, if you had the opportunity to go back in time would you do it. Even if you have to go through all the previous pains and stress of being a child. I know I would.